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Leah Capelle‘s new single “I Keep Her,” which BlackBook premieres here, opens with the stark confession: “I take too much and leave nothing for her / I don’t why I do it, and I don’t know how to stop.”
It’s this kind of emotional honesty that has propelled the young LA songstress steadily into the greater spotlight since her 2014 debut EP. And on this track, with the kind of visceral intensity of a Vanessa Carlton or Lykke Li, she conveys longing and vulnerability in equal measure, over thundering drums, and against an opulent, haunting sweep of strings.
She admits to a deep, emotional connection with women, something which created an understandable measure of confusion when she was younger. But she’s since learned to be more honest with herself, and accepting of her real feelings.
“As I got older, I started to realize that I had been lying to myself for a long time,” she confesses. “I was not as ‘straight’ as I had always claimed to be—and I was terrified of what that really meant. I carefully and cautiously started coming coming out as bisexual, and after my partner and I broke up, I was devastated; but I finally had complete freedom to be wholly and utterly myself.”
And then concludes, “In truth, this song isn’t just for one person—it’s for all the women I’ve loved thus far and for the women still searching, wondering…”
The song is taken from her new album triptych, due out April 3 via The Orchard / Little Cabin Entertainment.